Posts Tagged ‘forgiveness’
So I was trying to remember 2009 so that my last post of the year chould be a review of sorts…but I really couldn’t remember anything.
So then I went through my facebook photo albums and the ones that stand out the most are (in no particular order):
1. day in the park/beach – in Jan, Brett decided that for his birthday celebrations he was going to help out with a take-the-kids-from-an-orphanage-out-for-the-day-to-the-beach-and-love-them-day thing…and he invited people to go and help out, and i went, and it was awesomtastic. then in april and again in november some people from our church organised a take-the-kids-from-an-orphanage-out-for-the-day-to-the-park-and-love-them-day thing and once again i decided to join in. and again it was awesomtastic. i’m not the most kid-friendly person in the world…like, i would suck at being a kindergarten teacher, but i really do enjoy spending time with kids and just loving on them and making them feel wanted and loved and adored and listened to and whatever, even if it was for one day atleast they got to feel special.
2. vision k/youth/scripture union camp – as i said, i would suck at being a kindergarten teacher. and i would probably suck at being a middle/high school teacher as well, but if i had to choose, i would go for the middle/high school age group. so i’ve talked a bit about my exploits with vision k this year, and i may have mentioned the scripture union leadership camp as well – can’t remember, but yea, both of those and the youth group at my church have been highlights in my life this year. i truly do enjoy hanging out with youth and finding out where they are and if possible helping in their journey towards adulthood. i’ve been through the teenage years myself, and sometimes i still act like i’m going through them, and i remember how hard it was for me, so any help i can give someone else…
3. turning 25 – i liked turning 25. scary, yet…super cool. like i felt like i was finally an adult in a lot of ways. turning 26 is not scary, but it feels kinda sucky, don’t know if i’m going to enjoy it much.
4. namrock/baptism – so wrote a lot on namrock, and wrote about getting baptised. and definite highlights they were.
5. worship team – lots of memories. lots of laughs. lots of growing. thankfulness.
6. http://tsholo.wordpress.com/2009/10/02/worship-setlist-september-27-2009/ – i’ve been to PE quite a few times, and i always…well, i guess hate is a strong word but…well, it’s the right word. i always hated it. i was ok with like 2 days, but after that i was ready to leave. this year my dad moved to PE, then my sister also moved there. at the end of the year my lil bro is also moving there. so it will just be me and my mom in the western cape (sadness). but yea, the visit in september was so awesomtastic, i didn’t want to leave. and i’m looking forward to visiting again first week of next year…and throughout 2010. PE Love!
7. flatmating – had a super awesomtastic flatmate this year. i learned a lot from her and i totally appretiate the flatmate she was and all the talks and all the laughs and discovering “The OC” together and our late night dvd’ing and sms’ing each other from the other side of the wall and the sharing and all of it, it’s been great Lindz, will miss sharing a flat with you.
8. music and friends – the south african music scene is wow! and it’s even better when it’s live, and it’s shared with friends. new altum, flat stanley, just jinjer, aking, gravity wins again, straatligkinders, irvine, lua union, the lottery tickets, heldervue, black markets riots, 3rd world spectator, saint fearless, the rescue, tree63, the arrows, bed on bricks – just off the top of my head. memorable moments also include: being kidnapped and forced to go to the beach at 2 am when i was working the next morning, sneaking into the botanical gardens after it was closed and having a photo shoot after making a 20 minute video of us talking nonsense, TEAM AWESOMTASTIC, awesomtastic enGAGE dinners at Ginos and awesomtastic cricket watching at Ginos, SUPER inappropriate conversations and the birth of SOKs…and so much more…I really thank God for friends!
and then two more not in the photo albums, just to round it off
9. blogging – nablopomo(?) was really good for my blogging…blogging everyday for a month is not easy, totally respect those who do it year round. good and challenging. blogging has been so good for me though. it’s been a place for me to just spill what’s in my head onto something else and just get it out of my system so that it doesn’t take over. so thank you for reading.
10. God – lots of up and downs, lots of screaming and shouting, lots of late night pop-corn and cookies and ice-cream (He loves those), lots of laughing, lots of reminders, lots of fulfilled promises, lots of pouring on of LOVE, lots of us time, too much ingnoring from my side, lots of forgiveness, lots of convictions, lots of happiness and joy, more love and more reminders, lots of blessings, lots of breathe, lots of guidance, lots of mercy and grace, more love, lots of comforting, lots of more reminders for/to hope, lots of everything. Everything and LOVE!
and one more that had nothing to do with me but stands out this year was the wedding of the fish and TBV…read about it here.
I receive a weekly email called thortfortheweek from my pastor Brett Fish Anderson and I’ve decided to use this week’s thort as today’s post…if you want to subscribe to the thorts, send him an email: firstname.lastname@example.org
Greetings in the name of Jesus who I strive to follow.
“Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?”
Jesus answered, “I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.”
`Now Peter was sitting out in the courtyard, and a servant girl came to him, “You also were with Jesus of Galilee,” she said. But he denied it before them all. “I don’t know what you’re talking about,” he said. Then he went out to the gateway, where another girl saw him and said to the people there, “This fellow was with Jesus of Nazareth.” He denied it again with an oath: “I don’t know the man!”
After a little while, those standing there went up to Peter and said, “Surely you are one of them, for your accent gives you away.” Then he began to call down curses on himself and he swore to them, “I don’t know the man!”
Immediately a rooster crowed. Then Peter remembered the word Jesus had spoken: “Before the rooster crows, you will disown me three times.” And he went outside and wept bitterly.’
Then in John 21 there is the story of Jesus and Peter on the beach and Jesus lovingly reinstating Peter.
Now if we recall the stories of the gospel we can probably remember quite a few occasions when Peter gets it completely wrong – rebuking Jesus, cutting off the guard’s ear, clamouring for position among the disciples, falling asleep when he was meant to be praying for Jesus – and i’m sure there are a bunch of times that were not recorded as well.
I would imagine when Jesus comes to chat with Peter on the beach after His resurrection from the grave, that Peter was quite happy the answer to his original question here was not “seven times.”
Nice story hey? We all love it when Peter is reinstated because we all identify with messing it up horribly with God (and probably with people) and we all want to be reinstated with the least amount of fuss and guilt.
How eager are you to reinstate though?
Cos that’s when it becomes tricky hey? What if you are the person who has been sinned against seven times – how easy is that eighth time to forgive?
YES, BUT ARE YOU A GODLY FRIEND…?
On Sunday i was preaching on the difference between David and Samson in the Bible. Both lived within a generation of each other. Both were called early on in their lives. Both were leaders. And both sinned sexually. And yet for Samson that leads to his death but for David he lives. What is the reason for the difference there?
David had Godly friends. When you read the story of Samson it’s always `Samson went here’ and `Samson did this’ and he is always getting himself into trouble and sometimes getting himself out of it.
Whereas David had Jonathan (to stand alongside him with incredible loyalty that even went above that to his father) and Nathan the prophet (took a huge risk at speaking truth to David after the Bathsheba incident) and the Mighty men (a bunch of thirty-seven or more warrior fighters around him who had his back and did special missions for him) and Samuel (older mentor, advisor, father figure) and many more. David had people around him who encouraged and cheered and protected and rebuked and challenged and so when he sinned he was able to learn from it and repent of it and recover from it and move forwards…
Are you Samson or David?
During my preach on Sunday i spoke a bit about one of my best friends who taught me how not to give up on people. My buddy had two good friends I can think of who treated him pretty badly and it was often much a one-sided friendship and if i gave any counsel at all it would have been to protect yourself dude and run away from these people. He didn’t. They let him down and sometimes directly hurt him again and again and again and yet he continued to show faithfulness and loyalty to them way above and beyond the `call of duty’ so to speak.
When we look at divorce rates in the church and in the area of friendships and even perhaps why people leave churches sometimes we can see a clear pattern of people walking away when it gets tough (that is a generalisation on all three of those mentioned above but a lot of the time it is true) – this isn’t working for me, it’s hard, you hurt me, you got it wrong so i am outta here…
Then in John 21 there is the story of Jesus and Peter on the beach and Jesus lovingly reinstating Peter.
The rest of that Matthew 18 passage is the story of the unmerciful servant and Jesus concluding with the message that if we cannot forgive other people then God cannot and will not forgive us. Strong and hectic words.
The point of this week’s thort is the question, `How quickly do you give up on your friendships?’ and i am asking the Holy Spirit as i send this out to add conviction where conviction is necessary (conviction has a similar feeling to guilt sometimes but it is proactive in directing us to action – what can i do to put this right?) because i believe a number of you need to get hold of people and apologise and put things right. You will know who you are. And it may have been something from twenty-three years ago, or maybe this last week.
Forget the mindset of the world. I’ve been wronged, I must revenge. I’ve been wronged – you are no longer good enough to be my friend. Seek the mindset of God. And take some moments putting yourself in the other person’s person. If i was [insert name here] how would i be feeling? What would help me the most? What would teach me a strong love that always protects, always hopes, always trusts, always perseveres (1 Cor 13)
Read those four again: ALWAYS protects. ALWAYS hopes. ALWAYS trusts. ALWAYS perseveres… and goes on to say Love never fails. Love makes mistakes oh yes, by the thousands… but love doesn’t leave it there. Love NEVER fails. Love never gives up on a person no matter how bad they have gone.
What is Jesus calling me to do in the area of past friendships and maybe even some current ones when the mindset is to flee, to protect myself, to look after my reputation.
And what might it look like two weeks later… let’s take a quick look at the possibility of a life transformed by undeserved and revolutionary forgiveness:
`Peter replied, “Repent and be baptised, every one of you, in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins. And you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit. The promise is for you and your children and for all who are far off – for all whom the Lord our God will call.”
With many other words he warned them; and he pleaded with them, “Save yourselves from this corrupt generation.” Those who accepted his message were baptised and THREE THOUSAND WERE ADDED TO THEIR NUMBER THAT DAY.”
If Jesus had given up on Peter that day two weeks ago?
And to you i say – “Go and sin no more!”
God bless you
Brett FISH Anderson and No_bob (he’s back, oh yes!)
i heard something yesterday…something i didn’t want to hear. and my mind jumped straight to “how could you do that…you should know better!” which resulted in the following conversation ->
conscience: “girl, you know you’ve done worse”
judge-mentality: “yea, but that was before i knew better”
judge-mentality: “ok, maybe not, but it wasn’t really me…it was the alcohol”
judge-mentality: “ok, fine, maybe i don’t have the right to say anything”
so yea, i’m disappointed i guess…and sort of kinda confused as well (how did i miss it? am i that self-absorbed that i don’t see what’s going on with my friends? where there hints i missed? was that a hint?)…but I’m forgiven…so I forgive. It’s not really for me to forgive cos it doesn’t involve me in anyway, but I think in order to move on and not have judgemental feelings I need to forgive…i don’t know…forgive being let down in a sense (I guess that’s what happens when you put people on a pedestal). And I think I also need to ask forgiveness for judging…for being all high-and-mighty when i found out.
It’s funny how we – no actually I – can explain away my faults and justify my sins but when someone else does the same thing I’m first to jump in their faces and tell them they were wrong…plank vs spliter scenario in living flesh.
So I’m once again repenting, and resolving to not judge…to work on my planks (and there’s lots) before I see the splinters in the eyes of others.
Week 4 of the “Sunday Setlists” blog carnival at FredMcKinnon.Com…
Come , Now is the time to worship (Brian Doerkson)
O Praise Him (David Crowder)
Hosanna (Brooke Fraser)
Receive our adoration (Brenton Brown)
Bautiful One (Tim Hughes)
Wow, David Crowder again…hmmm…other than that loved the set this morning…especially “Receive Our Adoration”. Was the first time we were doing it.
As for youth, one of our guys was mugged on Friday, the week before on Thursday I was mugged, and on the Wednesday one of the guys from youth was stabbed during a mugging…so Brett decided it was a good time to talk about forgiveness. Was really cool…lots of chatting and discussing…and I really think the message got through.
Evening – enGAGE
Holy is the Lord (Chris Tomlin)
Your love is amazing (Brian Doerkson)
Beautiful One (Tim Hughes)
Everything (Tim Hughes)
I love your Presence (Darrel Clarke/Jessie Lane)
During practice on Thursday there was talk of doing “O Praise Him” and I wholeheartedly objected…apparently there are only 2 people who feel that song is being over-done…but we discovered it was because the two people also attend the morning service, which clearly is where the overplaying occurs…we ended up not doing the song.
Really enjoyed worship tonight…especially after practice went so bad on Thursday. It was Stephen’s second time leading and I think he did a great job tonight.
The preach was on the Fruit of the Spirit and how if we are followers of Christ our fruit (deeds, words, etc) should show it…they will know we are Christians by the love we have one for another vibe. If the Spirit is in-dwelling us, our character should be one of love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control…and also as much as we are a new creation when we come to Christ, it’s still an everyday working out your salvation with fear and trembling and seeking more of the Spirit till kingdom come thing.
This post was actually written a few weeks ago when I was dealing with a whole bunch of issues all at once. Really crazy time. Thanks to all those people who held my hand through it, especially those who’ve been through it before and might be getting tired of going through it all again. Oh and those who are new in my life and are getting bombarded with all these issues straight off the bat. Thanks for making me feel “special”.
is it truly possible to forgive and forget? if it is could someone please tell me how to do it.
so, yesterday morning at church, Chris (pastor, vineyard christian fellowship, stellenbosch) was talking about the christian disciplines – which forgiveness happens to be one of. And he was saying how the disciplines isn’t something you do once and you forget about and move on – its something you keep practicing. I was also reading something about pretty much the same thing in the book “Starving Jesus” (I think). You may forgive someone something and you’ve worked through it and moved on and all, then one day it comes back again, and guess what…you forgive again and move on again. I hate that. i wanna forgive once, and move on. and never have to deal with the same thing again. Why? Cause I dealt with it. the reason i had to deal with it and forgive and move on in the first place was because it hurt – and having to deal with it again hurts again. and i really don’t like hurting.
first weekend of march i went to a camp (vision k, i think i’ve mentioned the camp before) and during the camp we had a get-to-know-each-other session with the girls and most of them had father issues. and it hurt. it hurt that those girls were going thru what i went thru, and even worse stuff. when does it end? some of these girls – the stuff they went thru, i could never be able to handle it. i was so heart broken. so i cried…i cried for those girls and what they went thru; i cried because some of them will never know their true worth; i cried because some of them will go after the wrong guys in order to try and fill that empty space that the lack of a relationship with their father left. i cried for their stories and the other “fatherless generation” stories i’ve heard in the last 5 years or so that i’ve been involved with youth work/camps. at that point i wasn’t even thinking about my own issues. i dealt with them a few years ago, and again a couple of years ago…so they were dealt with and in the past and i had moved on.
then last night as i lay on my bed – after an emotional-roller-coaster evening service, they came up again. the hurt, the pain, the frustration…and as i lay there i thought “daddy, i’m tired of forgiving, and i’m tired of hurting over the same thing. i want to forget forever.” and the sermon from that morning came up again. and i thought about how i had asked God to help me put those things i’ve been learning at church and through the various books i’ve been reading into practice. so once again i have to decide to forgive – myself and my dad. it hurts but it has to be done. so yea, I forgive you!
so that’s 700 * 7 – 3.