Posts Tagged ‘unrequited love’
The fear keeps you silent
Posted on: October 7, 2010
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i told my friend about you today. i just couldn’t keep it a secret anymore. it was exploding out of me and i was afraid that i was gonna end up telling you. she doesn’t think it’s a good idea. i agree. i mean if it was an idea – if it was something that i had just decided on – then i would get rid of it immediately. i would choose to believe differently. but i’ve learned that it’s not that easy. i’ve tried to feel differently. i’ve mapped out all the reasons why i shouldn’t feel like i do, and why it’s wrong, and why it could never work…and why it’s a bad idea. i truly believe those reasons. they make sense. what i’m feeling doesn’t.
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i told another friend about you today. she looked at me like i was crazy. what she said was truth – it could never work. i already knew that. i told her as much. i’m not choosing to like you. i really am not. i know it’s not good for me. i know i’m not good for you. we are way too different. our lifestyles are too different. what would we even talk about? what would we do? it could never work. i know i should move on – believe me i’ve tried. i sought other guys to move on with…and they were cool, but something keeps holding me back. you don’t even fit my list…i just don’t get it.
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i told yet another friend about you today. he didn’t tell me it was wrong. he didn’t tell me i shouldn’t be feeling that way. he didn’t tell me to move on. as i babbled every reason why it could never work, he just thwarted them all away making them sound like excuses. and that’s when i realised that that is exactly what they are. all the reasons are stacked up to build a wall around my heart – cos if you ever got through i’m afraid of the damage you might do.
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i kinda wish i had the courage to tell you today. but i’m scared. of rejection. of your feelings. of getting hurt. of not being enough. of making the wrong choice. of my past wrong decisions. of falling with no one to catch me.
so i’ll remain silent…
You should stop talking to him…
Posted on: August 27, 2010
“You should stop talking to him because he’s just messing with your head. But you should continue because he’s messing with it in the best way and it makes your heart thump really hard and feel as light as air and it’s the most amazing thing – until it falls back down and hits you in the chest and you cant breath and it feels like you just want to die because there’s no point living if you feel like this and it wont get better because he doesn’t like you and he never will. And then you talk to him and everything is ok again because he’s amazing.” (from tumblr)
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i enjoy crushes…seriously. that’s probably why i’m forever in this state of unrequieted love. i mean, the unrequited part is pretty sucky. the beating yourself up because you think you can never be good enough for him is pretty sucky. the constantly comparing yourself to the girl he does like is pretty sucky.
but the butterflies when he enters the room, the heart pulpatations when he looks at you, the way a smile just forms on your face and lingers whenever his name pops up on your caller id, the way he can totally just change your super crappy day into the best day ever by just talking to you…i think they are worth it…sometimes.
however, when he does talk to you, the way your tongue sticks to the roof of your mouth and you suddenly develop a stutter and can’t remember how to speak English, and the way you beat yourself up later when you have the perfect comment/joke/annecdote/come back ever but it’s too late cos he’s already left, is pretty sucky!
#justSaying
your girl
Posted on: August 19, 2010
single and living the life
no need to report, i do what i want
living, not wasting a breathe
got too much going to be tied down
wild, and out of control
wreckless, without a care
abandoned, without restrain
the picture of freedom
but all that i want
is to hold your hand
which fits just right
and to feel your touch
and to taste your kiss
and to be held tight
and to know that i’m loved
and to hear you say
i am your girl
alive, there no stopping me
free, to roam as i please
turning heads, 50 missed calls
no need to wonder if you’d approve
but all that i want
is to hold your hand
which fits just right
and to feel your touch
and to taste your kiss
and to be held tight
and to know that i’m loved
and to hear you say
i am your girl
cos the outside is merely just a front
a lie for the world to see
cos i need them to think that i’m doing just fine
while all that i want
is to hold your hand
which fits just right
and to feel your touch
and to taste your kiss
and to be held tight
and to know that i’m loved
and to hear you say
i am your girl
i just want to be your girl
i just want to be your girl
Unrequited love stories 2
Posted on: July 15, 2010
as i said in part 1, these aren’t necessarily to a person, and therefore, not necessarily true, but were insipired by such sites as i wrote this for you and dear old love. enjoy…
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when i said “goodbye” i really meant “i still love you”. the words just came out wrong
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i think about you less and less everyday.
i’ve realised that i’m never getting over you.
one of the above statements is a lie.
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…and then you kissed me, and all was right with the world.
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i don’t know this world, this emptiness, this breathe-less-ness…this living without you…it’s not where i belong.
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this moment, this second, this you and me…this is perfection.
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usually, having someone look into my eyes scares me, because it makes feel vulnerable and naked…however, i love the look i see when i look into your eyes
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the truth is, i like you more than you’ll ever know…and i’m too scared to let you know…
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in…out…in…out…in…out
i don’t remember having to remind myself to breathe before you came along…
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i’m so glad facebook stalking is not a crime…
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i walked in a cold, rainy, miserable, cloud-covered day and sang “i’m walking on sunshine…and don’t it feel good”…all because i thought of you.
you are my sunshine.
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let’s forget the doubters and the circumstances and the fears and the past…let’s believe in a love that conquers all
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ironically, as scared as i am of you, your arms are the only place i feel safe
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i’m counting down every day, every hour, every minute, every second till you’re back in my arms
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i tore up every picture, every letter, every sticky note. i deleted every sms, every voice mail, every email. i burnt every borrowed hoodie, every present, every reminder. i got rid of everything that reminded me of you…
the memories still remain!
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for your sake, i hope you don’t think of me as much as i think of you.
coffee, cigarettes, and a guitar
Posted on: May 20, 2010
we stayed up all night
just talking
about life, love, and other such mysteries
we drank coffee, and smoked our cigarettes
we loved the same bands, we were both passionate about music
he was a musician – he even played that song for me
he was a surfer
he looked the part too
had girls swooning over him
he was perfect, the kind of guy i could see myself with
he said all the right words
he treated me right
understood that no meant no, and didn’t tease me about it
i started to picture a future -
tour buses, road trips, laughter, fun
nothing holding us back, we’d conquer the world
no one telling us to grow up
no one telling us to be responsible
we could hold on to our youth – to our lives
it was beautiful, just what i’d always wanted
but as he leaned in for a goodbye kiss i pulled away
because for all the positive traits he possessed
he just could never be you
The Allure of Unrequited Love
Posted on: April 30, 2010
i read/write stuff about unrequited love a lot…not necessarily because that’s where i’m at, but more because i agree that ‘the invincible power that has moved the world is unrequited, not happy, love.’
it sounds sad, but well, that’s cos it is. unrequited love reminds me of God’s love for us. we hurt him, we turn our backs on him, we ignore him, etc…yet he’s still there. arms wide open. loving. relentlessly loving.
anyway, i read this earlier this week and just wanted to share…it’s all about unrequited love:
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Can you goddamn send me messages that are over six words long? How can you not see me? Woohoo? Come on, come on, talk to me already, you see those friends every single weekday and me… well, I am withering from being able to see you only twice a month average these four years!!! What grievous deeds have I committed to be shackled to you? Where are the keys to quit you once and for all? Let me quit. I want to quit you. I must quit you.
I cannot.
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This is just an excerpt. Read the whole post here.
Unrequited love poems
Posted on: February 26, 2010
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A mighty pain to love it is,
And ’tis a pain that pain to miss;
But of all pains, the greatest pain
It is to love, but love in vain.
- Abraham Cowley
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Anna, thy charms my bosom fire,
And waste my soul with care;
But ah! how bootless to admire,
When fated to despair!
Yet in thy presence, lovely Fair,
To hope may be forgiven;
For sure ’twere impious to despair
So much in sight of heaven.
- Robert Burns
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He would not stay for me, and who can wonder?
He would not stay for me to stand and gaze.
I shook his hand and tore my heart in sunder
And went with half my life about my ways.
- Alfred Edward Housman
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I find my happiness in loving you.
Though my love is not returned, I don’t mind waiting.
The woods are a cathedral where I pray
For the beauty and grace that lie within my heart.
You hold me and we kiss, and yet not yet
Is there the unity that love must crave.
You want me, but not as I want you:
This truth is like a wreckage on my sea.
There’s no one else I hunger for, nor touch
That makes me feel I must take off my skin;
And so I’ll wait as years pile up like leaves,
And long with the lonely patience of the moon.
- Nicholas Gordon
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I wish this poem were pixie dust
To throw into your eyes
And make you see the loveliness
Beneath my sad disguise.
And I would take you in my arms
And weave a magic spell
That I could utter anytime
To make you love me well.
But alas my simple words
Are like summer rain
That drums on hills and fields and hearts,
Then vanishes again.
And though my love might make you bloom,
You turn with fragile grace
To gaze in aching loneliness
At someone else’s face.
We lust for what we cannot have,
A long, unbroken chain
Of lovers who remain unloved
And loved who love in vain.
While I’m near mad with wanting you
As trees must have the sun,
You cannot help but find a love
Who loves another one.
- Nicholas Gordon
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in a sea of people: you pass by and my whole being noticed you.
i pass by and you remain unmoved.
- anonymous.
Unrequited love stories
Posted on: February 25, 2010
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I wrote these…not necessarily to a person – some of them were, but not all. Most of them were inspired by sites like “I wrote this for you” and “dear old love”. Anyway, a friend of mine suggested that I should turn my facebook statuses into a book…but that wouldn’t work so well I think. So I decided to turn my one liners that I often write in notebooks and on my phone into a blogpost…same thing really…hope you enjoy.
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your song speaks the words my heart won’t dare to utter out loud…don’t stop playing…
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he called me. i picked up. and then i remembered, it’s you i wanted to talk to, not him.
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if you’re gonna go, then just do it. make it quick. just rip off the band-aid. my heart will break, but i promise i won’t scream.
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You’ve been gone for too long…please come back…
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When you left I was broken. I thought I wouldn’t be able to survive. I had to daily remind myself to breathe…to live one more second…
i’m better now.
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We are friends and nothing more – you still don’t have a clue clue. I think about you every second of everyday and write you letters and poems that you’ll never see. I know it will never happen, but I can’t help but hope…
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I want to marry you…or someone like you…in case you were wondering!
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People always leave…please prove me wrong…
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I do miss you, just in case you were wondering.
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I missed you today…
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I still miss you…
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I miss you the most when you are right in front of me, but you’re not here at all…
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I missed you…but now i’m getting over you…
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I hate missing you. I really do.
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I miss loving you.
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I thought not seeing you for a while would help. It really should have helped…but then you came back looking even cuter than ever…and I thought that I was done for.
…but then you totally ignored me. you didn’t even say hi. and it confirmed something i already knew but didn’t want to accept…something i tried to ignore…but now the truth has been made plain to me. there’s no fighting it anymore.
it’s time to move on.
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I saw you yesterday, but you didn’t see me…you never see me…
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I love watching you be you
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I love you for who you are
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I can’t read you.
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My heart is hurting, asprin doesn’t fix that.
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When I clicked “like” on facebook, i meant you…not the status!
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What would happen if I just blew off the face of the earth? Would you even notice?
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I just thought…and there you were…
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I tried to think…and there you were…
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I think I like you cos you are the polar opposite of who I am.
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You are too cute for your own good.
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I’m looking for you…were are you hiding?
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I love hearing you speak. I love hearing you say my name.
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Your hello sounds especially beautiful.
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You being here gives me hope…please leave!
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I thought I loved you, but then I realised I only love the thought of you…
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You had me at “hello”
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The rain, the cold, the songs…all of it…makes me wish you were here. but i don’t really want you to be here at all.
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I didn’t really want to leave…I just wanted you to ask me to stay.
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When these pillars get pulled down
It will be you who wears the crown
and i’ll owe everything to you
How much pain has cracked your soul?
How much love would make you whole?
You’re my guiding lightning strike
I can’t find the words to say
They’re overdue
I’ve travelled half the world to say
I belong to you
Then she attacks me like a Leo
When my heart is split like Rio
But, I assure you my debts are real
I can’t find the words to say
When I’m confused
I travelled half the world to say
You are my mu-
Ah! Réponds, réponds à ma tendresse
Verse-moi, verse-moi l’ivresse
Réponds à ma tendresse
Réponds à ma tendresse
Ahhh verse-moi l’ivresse
Verse-moi, verse-moi l’ivresse
Réponds à ma tendresse
Réponds à ma tendresse
Ahhh verse-moi l’ivresse
I belong
I belong to you alone
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I can’t find the words to say
they’re overdue
travelled half the world to say
I belong to you
